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Tennessee
01:19
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There is a coronavirus outside
And I am locked inside my house at high tide
And there's a boy I really love on the other side of this country
It's kind of sad the way this all works out
Jamie is coming home just as I head out
But maybe COVID-19 will last until the summer and
I'll lose my internship and run to you for cover and
We'll get one more season in the woods
Eating berries, mushrooms, rice cakes from whole foods
Just give me 3 more months with you, I swear I'll make it worth it
You can get treatment and I'll be a little hermit here with you
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Letter to Theresa
03:10
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When I heard you died I didn't even really cry
I just started at my phone
I flew down for the funeral and your parents parents picked me up
With your little son in the backseat
He said "Did you know that my mom died?"
I said "Don't you know that she was my mom too?"
But it didn't really feel like it
Snorting pills since I was a kid
And driving me drunk down the highway
And calling me names
So after I failed to cry
They gave me a box full of her clothes and I
Opened it up and saw her Birkenstocks inside
And I felt nothing
Except wondering why I felt nothing
It's been a month now and I find
I'm getting worse all the time
And her CDs in my CD player
And I don't know if I should hate her
And I thought that I was older now
But I'm still starving myself and sleeping around
And I don't want to leave this house
But if I drop out of school I'll get kicked out
And I'm half-tempted to live in my car
But my mother did that hippie shit
And she is in a jar
And summer is rolling in and this July I won't sleep in
And wake up in Tennessee with you nodding off right next to me
You taught me everything I know about not shaving my armpits or trusting in the government
And gave me problems that I can't even verbalize
And filled my eyes with stars
And made me want to die
And summer is rolling in and I wish I could sleep in
And wake up in Tennessee
With you and my brother next to me
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saw you squatting in the leaves
picking wild wineberries
you offered one to me
and as it fell into the space between my teeth
it suddenly occurred to me how much i love you
i took you up to the mountain where the crucifixes stood
but we rode it backwards,
saw iron leaving wood
then suddenly he is alive
and he awakes and is untied
falling feet find dark, damp earth
you made me feel like jesus in reverse
it's cold in the backseat of your brother's car
and you are feeding me,
jam on your lips is tart
but there's something lurking underneath
eating holes in my stomach,
i am losing sleep
you touch me but you're far away
one foot out the door while you beg me to stay
for now it's time to leave
that is what you said to me
so i backed into the street
as the earth slid from my feet
and i miss you in my bed
but i'm scared of what is in your head
and i want you in every way
but i think i will die if i wait for you
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Cold tofu
02:14
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I guess it's time for me to move on
I'm eating cold, salted tofu on the front lawn
And breakups never make me binge
We weren't even that serious
But I loved you so much
And I need you so much
I don't think that I'm built for love
I never fully get back up
If I'm being honest, I don't see what the point to life is if I
stay unwed, get a good job
I do not want a fucking dog
I want you
And me
In a cottage in the woods
This world is hard and I can't breathe
So tired since I was a teen
You're an asshole
And I can't live without you
And I guess it's time for me to grow up
I'm eating bowls of white sugar till I throw up
And breakups never make me cry
I never fully say goodbye
I can take it,
But I'm not built to go through life alone.
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Freight Train
02:08
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Freight train, freight train, run so fast
Freight train, freight train, run so fast
Please don't tell what train I'm on
So they won't know what route I've gone
There's one more place I'd like to be,
One more place I'd like to see
To watch them old Blue Ridge Mountains climb
As I ride old number 9
Kevin's train runs through Erwin
Me and my mom wave to him
The whistle blows and then it's gone
The freight train and my mom
When I die, Lord, send my soul
Down to the end of Rock Creek Road
So I can hear that CSX
And sleep in the forest
Yes, when I am dead and in my grave
No more good times here I crave
Place the stones at my head and feet
Tell them all I've gone to sleep.
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